Not Llama Fest

Yesterday Whit and I set out to go fun places without going to Llama fest. Mainly because I was hungry. So we went to the BK, well not really we went here, let's see if you can figure it out...




Then we went here....




Then we went to Nebraska...



This was kind of like a moses scene, through the weeds, artistic really.Miss Susie, Mary Mack, I can't figure it out, this obviously was harder for me than anyone else. Funny how that works. You would think I would jump at the chance to clap and sing simple poems.

A woodland table shot
We were scavenging for food...We were so hungry, so far away from home and lost none the less.

Whit hanging out, looking cute as usual.

Me walking in the FREEZING river, I thought my feet were going to ache off.

The of course this band of mid-evil knights attacked Whit and I. So of course we kicked their trash, and beat them down until only their armor and their peasant tops were left behind.

What is this? is it true, oh my word yes!

it is a VW beetle with a lift and monster tires


THEN!! we happened upon a friend whom we decided to bombard because we like her or something. Way funny Lora that could use a pick me up.




Yes I am being a fish, can you tell where I am ?
Lora's last name really is Grass, what an amazing family



The highlight of the night, so on our way back from Lora's, I drove Whit past the Zuber's house. I hadn't talked to them for a long time, so it was a good visit. We come in and sit down and Peter says to us "hey I am going flying would you guys like to come?" So I look at Whit and say "oh yeah, they have a plane" and wouldn't you know, my prankster like reputation followed me and Whitney wouldn't believe they had a plane. So we had to go then.

Ow ow, and this time Whit, I am saying that in a hot sense, not because I hit me in the face twice.

Whitney in the cockpit, abviously being the co-pilot . working with the controls, learning how to get us out of the plane if we have to escape, looking up coordinates, scanning the skyways for on coming flyers, preparing the missiles.
Talking to the tower, you know amazing niner ten four good buddy talking-only people that were pilots would understand. We look amazing in our headsets, all official like


The amazing sunset that obviously isn't nearly as great as it was in person as it is in the picture
Perfect spy, look at Whitney take control of the skies.

Looking up the coordinates in the big green book, numbers and things only a co-pilot and would really understandThe Y from above


Timp, it's so big!
this is the view south of campus I think you can see park place, at least you could without the camera
BYU, well most of it we were flying so fast.
And the temple, you could see it from wherever we were.

After the flight exiting the plane, and yes that is me in the background getting out of the plane like an ostrich.

Ahhh....much better, standing like a normal person at the end of our adventure . What a great day, and all because we decided not to go to Llama fest, who would have thought.

Things That Make Your Heart Hurt

You know when you suspect something is going on, but you choose to ignore it, or you try to confront it and you can't ever pin down the problem. Then later after everything falls apart you find out this vital information that existed at the time but you had no idea. Had you have known it would have been ideal to have had all the playing cards on the table. Yeah...I hate being lied to.

In all of my dealings with jerks, and people who straight up are just mean to me (this is not a pitty party) and the people that I have lost touch with, or just wasn't real great friends with, I am grateful for the chance I have had to experience times where these people where the exact opposite. Not only that, but today I realized that during these euphoric times that they must have really touched me in one way or another because I have kept something, such as a note or a dried flower, that reminds me of that time in my life. Not that everyone I know is a jerk or is mean but relationships change and it warms my heart to know that somebody cared at one time. a few of those things being:

a card that goes in a thing of flowers sent by greg to me the day after he gave me a concussion- all it says is "greg" on it, but I do remember what those flowers looked like and how wonderful I felt because he did that for me.

Or the present bow that ashley lowham sent me in the mail for my birthday my freshman year of college. she was always sending me stuff and brightening my day, and i am not sure that she knows how much that meant to me.

How about the amazing set of ninja turtles that someone gave me because I apparently told them how much I had wanted them at one point in my life-so cool.

Or the letters that I get from Jordan Ward a little girl that was my miss idaho little sister for who thinks the world of me and has enough faith that I will continue to write her back, which I should be better at.

Not to mention the way amazing note made of screws, nuts and wire that I got from alan a long time ago that made my year that still hangs on my wall, it's missing two nuts though, they fell off.

And the princess pillow my mom made for me out of nowhere, eventhough she thinks I am silly she still supports me anyway.

I can't forget the chocolate candle I got from mandy and eric a while ago because they thought about me on their honeymoon, it's not what you think, they when to hersey penn. and got me something cool.

I love the cow bobble head I got from ashley's mother because a year ago she was in the store, saw it and was reminded of me. I hardly ever talk to her and she has a thought every once in a while about me.

I still have the cute little book from amanda hawkins that she gave me for some reason that has cute little pictures of a bunch of girls all dressed up, it's way cute and I like to pull it down every time and again.

I have my golden ears from my hometeachers that took me to disneyland last year. they were pretty amazing boys let me tell you.

I can't leave out the dirt that I have that people have brought back for me, kyle taking the lead with chile AND texas, Sean with montana, ashley/wyoming, Carrie's is cool because it's from buckingham palace.

while this may sound silly i think I even still have a twig from justin Krogue freshman year when he pulled it off a tree turned around and said "keep this forever" and I did in my jacket pocket.

I guess I could go on forever, and maybe one day I will. I think the next time I will list all of the things that people have done for me- it's so much longer. That is probably for the best as I am feeling pretty depressed lately, I think making a new list of blessing I have had in the last little while might pull me out of that as it humbles me and makes me more grateful for what I have.

I bet things will get better. I had good intentions, I did what I thought and felt was right, I may not see the benefit as I have risked a lot and lost it all and don't feel like there is an end. However, I am sure that (in the words of mel) what doesn't kill me will make me stronger, after I wished I were dead. Good ol DT.

confesions of an ex-beauty queen

There is one time in my life I have taken a beauty tip from someone seriously as though it was going to truely benefit me in one way or another. Not to say that people haven't tried, but I really put some faith into this endevor. Virginia, before she left for who knows where she left, bore her testimony or gave a RS lesson and talked about depression and little things to do to make you happy. Not that I have a problem, but I felt I could use the pick me up.

So I paid money for this helpful hint of virginia's, and while it's probably a waste of money, and to be honest I don't believe that chemically it's helping me in one way or another, it has provided a means to boost my confidence. No I am not going to say what it is, that is a part of the specialness of it. I guess all I am trying to say is, I do listen in church. and even though it may not seem like it I do benefit somewhat.

Heidi's Graduation!

This weekend I went home for My little sister's graduation from fruitland High school. This year was a good one to be present at for there was a new principal whom nobody likes. Of course is reputation continues to go down hill as he sugests things like changing the school colors and the mascot, and requiring ugly school uniforms.

However as far as imediate effects go, The prinicpal told the seniors this year that there would be no praying at his graduation, that there was to be no funny business-all formal-and that he would be moving the tassel instead of the class president as tradition has always been.

Well wouldn't you know that the students would not like that so as we sat down to begin the commencement, and the two students welcoming everyone split their duties and one said a beautiful long prayer. After which the principal had some words with them and the atmosphere was a little tense.

The speakers were two teachers from the high school who did a comidic speech walking around the graduates instead of standing on the stage which was frowned upon, and at the end, the two final salutitorians stood up, said their speech and then "due to tradition" invited the class president up to the stage to say a few words. As you might guess she then moved the tassel, and beat the prinicpal to the punch. oh yes, he wasn't happy.


Oh heidi is so cute, and that is my dad in the background
Me and Heidi's tassels her's is orange white and black and mine is silver instead of white, we are having an argument that should be remidied- so all of those that think that silver is better than white please post your ballot


The guy at the wall asked me if I wanted to climb the rock wall, to which I replied "oh I don't know, I haven't done that since my own graduation party" and the guy looked at me funny and then I realized that I looked like a high schooler and I was embarassed, as was he, so I changed the subject and told him I would love to climb the wall because I didn't want him to feel dumb

Swinging like monkeys, the black rock just out of the picuture was a hard one and nobody could grab it.

These shots were mid air as they would start on one rock on the lower wall and then jump up to the rocks above the ledge, it was fun enough to watch and they were thrilled I could get these shots

More messing around and playing in the kitchen nothing really was happening here at all. Except where I pulled out my cap and tassel and we played with those.

TALL PAUL! and me of course
Me and Deric

Just messing around back at home before the all nighter

Me, Heidi and Deric- good thing Deric thinks he's so funny

They tried to get her to let them hold her, but she just sat and laughed at them
Heidi spent a lot of time with the boys in high school, I think they are all fun and by all means, they think I am the cooler sister anyway
Heidi and two of her little buddies- Destiny and Mackenzie (I thought it was pretty fun too that I left destiny behind but still didn't miss her because I had a destiny here)
This is me and Michael Fewkes, the kid who changed the pricipals plans at the last min and asked that the class president come up and move the tassel, rather than the principal who seemed to think the graduation was all about him

This is heidi right after she got her diploma! yeah! woo woo! it was quite the cerimony. We had an illegal prayer, and a bunch of kids that (much to the enjoyment of the community) messed up the principal's plans. I had a great time visiting old friends, the usual when you go home things. But taking pictures was my real, only job, so that is what I did...here is a choice few.
Me and heidi...hmmm not real cute Begging heidi to keep her hat on so we could take lots of pictures.
No matter how many times we told heidi to keep her hat on she would always take it off so then we had many moments of her putting it back on again
My dad, heidi and mom